Things I think I know I think are helping

  • Lying on the floor listening to whales.

  • Crying really hard before bed. It helps with insomnia. I've added this to my daily schedule so it doesn't take me by surprise. Pro tip: ball up used tissues and pelt them across the room. It's very therapeutic. 

  • Listening to Christine Högl, Hariprasad Chaurasia, ocean sounds. Nothing with lyrics except Tom. 

  • Talking to houseplants. Loving them. 

  • Rearranging furniture.

    • Jasper and I moved the kitchen furniture into our creepy basement dungeon locker. (Walking by them depressed me; they’re a reminder of all the people I can’t have over for dinner.) We scored two free bookshelves (!) on craigslist and created a cozy book nook in their place.

    • On weekends we drag the mattress into the living room and watch cartoons in our "weekend house."

    • Throughout the day we rotate our loveseats to face the windows ("porch"), to face each other ("fort"), or to form a giant bed.

  • Yelling nooo in a funny voice when the woman across the street yells nooo in a funny voice when her dog barks. Similarly, cawing when the crows caw and singing when the birds sing. 

  • Keeping the phone on silent. Not looking at the news (as much). 

  • Stretching. Legs up the wall. Hot water bottle on abdomen. 

  • Apples. They are so crisp and juicy. 

  • Baby shampoo. Baby everything. Tending to frightened baby animal body.

  • Hugging trees. 

  • Making up derives. For example,

    • Tear four strips of paper and label them N, S, E, W. Place them in a hat. Draw two directions. Walk in those directions. 

    • Find a bird and follow it.

    • Guess how many squirrels (or other critters/objects) you'll see and count them as you wander. Don't go home until you've found them all. 

  • Billy Blanks Tae Bo. 

  • Reading.

    • The Upanishads

    • Stay Woke

    • Creating a Life Worth Living

  • Calling magical unicorn friends and reminding them they're magical unicorns and remembering I'm a magical unicorn, too.

  • Writing. Making. Being.

  • Decolonizing my practice, process, life.

  • Gratitude.